You Tube

Yeah YouTube, I'm 3 years late. I've been meaning to make use of this crazy site for the longest time. I just never have time. I tried making a video for Chasing The Clouds, one of the tracks on the Path to Reality album, back in November of 2008. Dedicated an entire Saturday to doing it, but as usual i hated it, and scrapped it. I tired something again in May of 2009, and once again, that ever so familiar feeling of nausea was lingering around, and i quit, totally disgusted with myself.

The weird things is I love what I've seen from other people, and most of the time it's so simple. I've also noticed we (artists) tend to like what other people do automatically, and second guess ourselves.

It seems to take me an eternity to do the the simplest things, and actually enjoy it. It never lives up to the image in my mind's eye. I've narrowed it down to focus and organization. I need time to get the creative juices flowing, and flowing in the right direction. I happen to be one of those happy go lucky types when it comes to creative projects, especially music, but video, photography and graphic design is a totally different ballgame for me.

Anyhow I've managed to through my hangups and post something to You Tube. You can check it out here. Check it out, leave me a comment, and join my channel if you like.

Meditation

Well, I've heard about it pretty much all my life. Always wanted to do it, never found the right moment to do so. Ironic I know, but it's a lesson learned, that we have to take the time to do it, or to get anything done these days.

Just before Christmas 2007, I picked up a book by the Dalai Lama How to see yourself as you really are . It's a very comprehensive guide to Buddhist meditation practices.

Well I finally tried it, early one morning before leaving for work. As always in my non traditional ways, no special technique, no sitting with my legs crossed, no new age music with pan flutes etc I just sat on the couch, and closed my eyes... boy was I in for a surprise, I got my ass (mind) kicked, about a billion thoughts raced through my mind at that moment. I felt overwhelmed. So I decided to just focus on an object etc, and for no particular reason I decided to focus on a blue light. Well after about 10 min, I was able to clear my mind, and just focus on that one blue light. I was astounded, I had done it, I had stemmed the flow thoughts for at least a few minutes. I felt really good the rest of the day.

It proved to me that if I can truly focus on one thing, and accomplish that one thing I'd feel accomplished, and lighter. I'm not looking to transcend any barriers here, what so ever. I'm just looking for some focus, and that feeling of peace I had when I was a kid.

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